more steps

what to say what to say.  we shale start with hi. Hi.  I took another step today and cooked a full meal from scratch. I also started making a rag rug and painting a little bitty sign. I’ll have pictures of the rag rug some time. I have decided that when the rug is starting out it looks like a lions tail. I also plan on reaching my damn ten thousand step goal for today if it kills me. I like walking and yoga. those are my favorite forms of exercise.

I have a daughter who will from here on out be referred to as my “short person”. She is 11 and 5’0″ tall. It is an inside joke as she is not short.  She has decided that some things are just not cool.

For some reason she is not curious or inquisitive and only wants to play on her devices. She has three cats to help take care of that she doesn’t want anything to do with most of the time. Gods forbid you ask her to do something. like watch a movie, play a board game. I know that is normal to some degree. however I can not abide by no curiosity or wanting me to be normal. I informed her that “normal” people don’t listen to the birthday massacre,  watch anime, read manga or binge out on The Nightmare Before Christmas and she changed her mind. These are things that I do. I do not do normal, I do messy, artsy, moody, goofy, gothy momma.

I hope that some day she will get back to being creative and watching cartoons and other animated things with me.  this picture is one of my paintings. I hope you like it. oooh are we up to 300 words yet?

Blessed be

pagan Hyde

The first steps

The first steps.

The first steps

I have been gone for quite some time. This month I took the first steps back to being me. The first step was that I lost my one full time job. Not much love lost there, I hated that job. It was killing me. I was sick all the time. I literally went to the doctor every month for a recurring upper respiratory issue that is now starting to clear up. I gained weight due to inactivity and poor diet and was more depressed than usual. I worked so much at this blood sucking job that I could not do what I love to do and that is the other way I was dyeing. I did not have the time or energy to create anything.

You see, I am a crafty person. I like to create, paint sew, build, write poetry and baking those are the creative things that make me happy and I could not do them while working in hell.

The second step back to being me, was a much smaller step. I put my much loved multi-colored often Halloween inspired earrings back in. You see I have four holes in my lobes and for over a year I have not put anything in those holes because I worked a phone job and backs would poke the piss out of my head and that does not feel good. Now I don’t have that problem so back in they went.

Over the next few days or weeks I will post all of my paintings and poems and we shale see what you think. I will also be taking the next steps back to being me.

blessed be

pagan Hyde